I bought some stuff off of eBay recently and have been eagerly waiting all week for them to be delivered. Today, as I was unloading my kids, I saw the mailman take two large boxes to one of the houses down the street. I was a little suspicious but didn’t give it a second thought once I got into the house. As I was checking my email tonight I received a tracking update that my packages had been delivered. I checked the porch one more time but there were no boxes. So I did what any respectable person does at 10:00 at night. I got out of my pajamas and back into my clothes and took a little walk down the street. I tried to be as nonchalant as possible as I did my porch peeking. As I passed the house where I had seen the mailman leave the boxes I noticed that they were still sitting on the porch. I contemplated my next move. Should I walk up and check the name on the box, or wait until the morning to knock on the door. As much as I would like to say that I chose the latter, I did not. I tip-toed up to the porch making the extra effort not to make any noise. Just as I suspected I saw my name and address clearly printed on the shipping label. I grabbed the boxes and drug them back down the street to my house. As I made the journey home I began preparing my speech just in case someone confronted me and my beloved packages. Luckily I did not have to defend my actions but as I maneuvered them into the house I realized that my heart was beating as if I had actually stolen them. When I showed my husband what I had found he spent the next ten minutes making fun of me. The more I thought about it I realized that he had good reason for his laughter! My mission was borderline crazy.
I tend to be single-minded at times. (Stubborn might be a better description but since I am the one writing this I will use more flattering words!) I was convinced that those packages were mine and I would have had a hard time getting to sleep had I not marched down the road to find out. As much as I hate to admit it, I get like this fairly often. When I realized this about my self I was determined that it could be positive a character trait. Soon after, I came across some verses in Psalm 119:113-115, “I hate double-minded men, but I love your law. You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word. Away from me, you evildoers, that I may keep the commands of my God!” These verses require me to maintain focus! I have to keep my mind focused on Christ and put my hope in him alone. There are so many things in this world that are distracting and I am called to be of one mind and to remain alert! I can’t allow the things of this world to creep in and allow me to become double-minded. I have to choose my loyalty and seek to put Him first in every single decision! I am far from the mark, but I know that when I do this my life as a follower of Jesus is much more fulfilling than when I get off track!