Most of you would throw my iPod across the room if it were handed to you in the middle of a workout, I seriously have 7 songs on it. The rest of the space is taken up with sermons from pastors all across the country. I am not some spiritual superwoman, I just don’t enjoy music that much. When I am exercising I would rather listen to someone pound the pulpit than strum the guitar!
As a result, worshipping God through song has always been a little difficult for me. I may clap along or sing the words, but I rarely allow it to go much deeper than that. It is not that I don’t like the lyrics, I just never really thought it was that big of a deal.
Until this week.
I was sitting at the table with my kids and we read Psalm 100:
“Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.
Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.”
I was talking to my kids about how we are supposed to sing songs in worship to God when that still small voice cut right through my heart. “Do you do this, Christy?” I tried to ignore it but it ate at me all day long. The honest answer is that I don’t. I worship the Lord through the consuming of His word no problem, but to open my heart and joyfully sing the name of the Lord…..rarely happens!
The next day, I committed to setting my excuses aside and popped in a worship CD in the car. I intentionally chose to listen to worship music rather than preaching as I cooked dinner this week, and when I went to church last night I determined in my heart that I would enter his gates and sing with thanksgiving. As tears ran down my cheeks I worshipped God in a way that I had let slide over the last few years.
I have a long way to go, and much to learn! But I am grateful that He is not done with me yet…………